Wednesday, January 14, 2009 >>One More ChanCe.. No MoRe?

FANGURL MAKNAE TIN and DONG BANG SHIN KI's PRETTY BOY JAEJOONG .. NO MORE ONE MORE CHANCE?





People are making a fuzz about it. Everywhere I go, eyes are on me. Looking at me from head to toe. I hear whispers going in and out of my ears. Is it true? What happened? How insensitive of her? She should give him another chance? Did she really love him. Why do that to him? All of these, keep repeating in my ears, like a broken record. And it's eating me all up. Slowly tearing me up into pieces... Slowly killing me. Once and for all I'll say it in all in here and I'm never saying it again. Everything my heart is longing to burst out. And everything my eyes has to say. Im not doing this for people to pity me. All I need is for people to understand that we're also human. We, Yan, Alyce, Suzy, and I are not toys. We're not made to satisfy each people's desire. We have feelings too. Our hearts are filled with emotions. Emotions hidden deep within. Emotions that are hoping to be set free someday. And I hope this article could be the start of it.........
December of 2008, I saw it with my own eyes. Hero Jaejoong with HHJ. At a train station. He never knew I was there. And he never knew I'd supposed to be there. That was the day I came back from Taiwan. Jetlag, racoon eyes, baggy eyebags and a box of his favorite cake from Taiwan. That's all I had for him. But I really wanted to see him. 3 weeks of not having to see him was torture. All I hear was his recorded “GOOD MORNING GREETING” in my phone which was also my alarm tone. The sound of his voice was my strength to keep going desite all the pressure I had to go through during my stay in Taiwan for my drama shoot. And when Im lonely, I just think of him. And that teeny weeny hope that in a few weeks time, I'll be able to see him again was like a rope that connects me to him. It was like holding on to a rope filled with oil. Hard, it was sooo hard. And then comes this girl. I saw it in Jae's eyes. I've never seen him look at a girl that way. Worst is, Ive never seen him look at me that way. And all through that 3 weeks of not having to see me, I've never seen the sadness in him. The emptiness and that desperate feeling I felt. I never saw it on him.... NEVER! And then I started to reflect. Was I lacking? What did he see in that girl that he didnt see in me? Or have I given him too much? Was it too much for him that he no longer wants it no more?
And now tell me, who has the right to ask if I love him? No one. For no one knows all the pain I had to endure just to be with him. Though Cassies had been very supportive to us, there are still some who cant accept the fact that we're together. Every wrong move that I make is taken up against me. Telling me I'm not the right girl for him. Every guy that I make friends with have always been threatened by his fans. Even my own brother was even suspected to be my boyfriend. Since the time I started to make him a part of my life, I never practiced a normal life since then on. Was the happiness Im feeling when Im with him enough to bring back what I've lost?
I have already decided. People may hate me. But that's the way its gonne be. This time, I will be the only one to decide, for I was the only one who was brave enough to face the fact that there was something wrong with our relationship after all. I need space, time and a chance. Space, space and little more space. A time for me to reflect on what I really want. And a chance to bring back the person in me. The “Tin” that was lost when I started loving him. And the Tin that will still continue loving him. I dedicated my two years loving him, being there for him and almost giving up everything for him. Its about time that he gives me what I want............ Unni leader, I know you are against with me putting up this article. I know you only want what's best for me and for the group. But I need this. Im sorry. And so is for the rest of the FanGurLz. Dui Bu Qui. Yan and Alyce. Thank you so much for being with me. Through it all. I LOVE YOU.

Fangirl_tin ( Sweet_yellow )

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BIRTHNAME: Suzette Rances
STAGE NAME: HOT PINK
NICK NAME: SUZY
DATE OF BIRTH: July 11, 1988
PLACE OF BIRTH: Cebu, Philippines
ETHNICITY: spanish, japanese, filipino
FAMILY: parents, younger brother
HEIGHT: 5'5" sub-vocals
LANGUAGE: English, Chinese, Japanese, Filipino (conversational), Korean,
SPECIALTY:cooking, VJing

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BIRTHNAME: Gryanne Yanazawa
STAGE NAME: CUTE RED
NICK NAME: YANTOOT
DATE OF BIRTH: June 25, 1989
PLACE OF BIRTH: Kyoto, Japan
ETHNICITY: japanese, american
FAMILY: parents, younger brother
HEIGHT:5'4"
POSITION: main vocals
LANGUAGE: English, Japanese, Korean,
SPECIALTY:piano, music & lyric composition

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BIRTHNAME: Jane Alyce Wu
STAGE NAME: SEXY GREEN
NICK NAME: LYCE
DATE OF BIRTH: Nov. 11, 1989
PLACE OF BIRTH: Paris, France
ETHNICITY: korean,chinese, american
FAMILY: parents, 2 younger brothers
HEIGHT: 5'5 1/2"
POSITION: lead dance, rap
LANGUAGE: English, Chinese, Japanese, Korean
SPECIALTIES: dancing, choreography, ballet, hip-hop

TIN

BIRTHNAME: Kristine Marie Paige
STAGE NAME: SWEET YELLOW
NICK NAME: TIN-TIN
DATE OF BIRTH: Feb. 27, 1990
PLACE OF BIRTH: England
ETHNICITY: british, chinese
FAMILY: parents, 2 younger brothers
HEIGHT:5'6"
POSITION: high vocals
LANGUAGE: English, Mandarin, Japanese, Korean SPECIALITIES:acting, guitar, ramp modelling,


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